By myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again

BRIDGE

By myself, myself
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself, myself
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself

CHORUS 1

I CAN'T HOLD ON
TO WHAT I WANT WHEN I'M STRETCHED SO THIN
IT'S ALL TOO MUCH TO TAKE IN
I CAN'T HOLD ON
TO ANYTHING WATCHING EVERYTHING SPIN
WITH THOUGHTS OF FAILURE SINKING IN

If I turn my back I'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they'll
Take from me till everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer

BRIDGE - REPEAT

CHORUS 1 - REPEAT

How do you think I've lost so much
I'm so afraid I'm out of touch
How do you expect I will know what to do
When all I know is what you tell me to

Don't you know
I can't tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do how hard I try
I can't seem to convince myself why
I'm stuck on the outside (2X)

CHORUS 1 - REPEAT

CHORUS 2

I CAN'T HOLD ON
TO WHAT I WANT WHEN I'M STRETCHED SO THIN
IT'S ALL TOO MUCH TO TAKE IN
I CAN'T HOLD ON
TO ANYTHING WATCHING EVERYTHING SPIN
WITH THOUGHTS OF FAILURE SINKING